It is an experience for any person who has moved away and then returned to their land of childhood, their place of safety and city of friends and all things familiar.
My time home was an amazing one. I got to do everything I wanted to do while I was there and more. I had so much fun hanging out with friends and family. I loved being home for christmas and new years where I got to share life with so many old friends and family.
One of the thing I would definitely say about my trip home was that it was an experience. It was a holiday, a vacation, a time to relax and enjoy home, but I was thrown into a new experience and eye opening change. As I came home I expected things to be changed. People grow, change, and move on from the point when I left for Ireland. But when I got home that was not the thing that I noticed the most that had changed. I noticed that I had changed.
Things were different. I had seen a new world and experienced a new way of life and going back to the previous one was an eye opener. By no means am I saying that things at home were bad or worse than the new life that God has blessed me with in Northern Ireland. I just had changed so much and had my whole way of thinking and perceiving life altered that I noticed many different things than what I thought I would notice. I felt like I was now seeing clearly and so many things are being revealed to me. It was a good and fresh experience to have at home and something that God is using to shape me and mold me. To be totally honest, it wasn't an easy experience because I am such an internal person. I think about things too much and the only way I can describe it is, I kill myself with my thoughts. I turn it over again and again in my head and in the situations at home where I can't do anything with the things I was seeing, I just got stressed out and discouraged. Loosing my hope and my passion.
But God is good! He holds me in His hands and takes all my worries. He will do it in his time and will fulfill the dreams of my heart in His perfectly laid out plan. I don't have to worry about it or give it a second thought until the time comes.
So coming back to Northern Ireland I had a lot to think about and had a lot of questions I wanted to ask. I also felt like I saw more of the ways God is changing and molding me. He continues to show me how amazing He is. My eyes are opened more each day (a spirit of wisdom and revelation) and I have this new love and passion for the Streets. To get out among the lost, God's people, and live the life of the kingdom. I see a new boldness within myself. I see God's plan for my life coming together, I feel like God has given me the biggest gift by letting me see His plan for my future and now I get to watch him work and move things into place as I walk in obedience and partnership with him; it is so much fun.
Since coming back, I have had a refreshment of the pure excitement that gripped my heart when I started my internship back in August of 2008. Everything in me is just rearing for the next adventure and the next thing God is going to be teaching me. Even if that thing is hard, tough, stretching, challenging, and goes against my comfort zone I want to learn it. I feel that there is still lots of learning for me to do and many ways for me to grow.
I just want to say thank you for all my friends and family at home who love me and support me. You made my trip home a very fun and memorable one. You also have made my life one worth living. You have made me the most blessed man on this earth with your kind words, your thoughtful actions, your time spent hanging out, your prayers, and most of all you love. I am a blessed man indeed.
God Bless you all!
ps. for those who want me to write more because you want to know more of what is going on here, don't worry, I will be writing more very soon. :-D
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