Tuesday, September 16, 2008

I had an experience today.  It was an experience that I needed above all experiences.  I was humbled.  

I was shown my true colors by reading bree nordstrom's blog.  I am so prideful.  I am full of myself, thinking that I am great and good.  That I am so amazing.  What a thought!  What pride!!  I have seen my unworthyness to even think a prideful thought.  I am unworthy of all that He is, has, and has given to me.  I see my pride, my impurity, my unworthyness, and I see my faults.  I see pride in my dreams of life.  I see all my prideful thoughts and notions about God and my life.  About where I am going and where I want to go.  How I have always wanted to be called out by the big preacher.  How I have always wanted to be seen by all of my peers.

But after reading Bree's blog, I wish anything but that.  I am a little humbler now, and I ask and plead with you God to take it all from me.  That I will be one with your heart.  Than none of me will be living apart from what you have given me.  That true life that I find in You is all that I want.

Make me clean.  Forgive me for my pride!  Help me surrender all!  I want to surrender all of it and all of me.  Take me to a place where all I have is you.  Where I am the weakest thing and there is no other answer but you.  Help me...

1 comment:

Glory Experience said...

dude..I'm with you man, we're here to give up everything; it's only in Him we will find not only the answers that we need but the answers that the world does; Let us die daily together!

love you